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a day with a new view...may b..
semalam ak dah set date ngan deela nk bwk die ngan baby adrin jalan-jalan.area shah alam jer..cuma ak kena tunggu deela balik keje kul 5..
takpe lah,tggu jer..leh aku redakan sikit lebam mata ni..hmm...
mula-mula nak masak, tapi bila papa tgk aku cam tak sihat lagi, papa terus volunteer nak beli nasi ayam. macam biasa, aku bedal half je..
dah kul 4 petang aku pun bersiap nk kuar..dalam kul 5.30 aku sampai umah deela. then ktrg fetch adrin kat umah baby sitter...
huhu...damn miss adrin so much...
get a life, zarina...!!berkobar pulak rasenyer nak amik anak angkat bila dalam masa 5 jam aku spend time with adrin. suka sangat hugging him,play with him...n bile he's so tired, he fell asleep..he's cute...rase cam taknak balik je tadi.but, mama dah call tanya lokasi aku..ok2,i'm back mama...
urmm,birthday adrin dah dekat, ape nak beli untuk die kan..hmmm...think it later on...macam best lak tgk citer kontrak cinta ni...nak sambung lagi pun dah letih tgk monitor ni...till c ya....

100 TRUTH

100 TRUTHs(really???)

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage:
ice tea

2. Last phone call:
hariry

3. Last text message:
hariry

4. Last song you listened to:
the climb by miley cyrus

5. Last time you cried:
yesterday (03072009)

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice:
yups...!!

7. Been cheated on:
many times...erk!!!

8. Kissed someone & regretted it:
huh,yes!!

9. Lost someone special:
yes,i do...

10. Been depressed:
a lotz...

11. Been drunk and threw up:
nopes!!!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. blue
13. black
14. pink

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend:
a lotz..

16. Fallen out of love:
again, YES...

17. Laughed until you cried:
i'll try, n i did it...

18. Met someone who changed you:
yup, until forever...

19. Found out who your true friends were:
yes, n he means a lot for me...

20. Found out someone was talking about you:
nope, i dun really exist in their mind..

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list:
n again, yes...

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life:
half of them..

23. How many kids do you want?:
3 may b

24. Do you have any pets:
no, but i will sumday, fish may b...

25. Do you want to change your name:
nope,i luv my names...

26. What did you do for your last birthday:
my frenz n family set up my surprise birthday party...

27. What time did you wake up today:
4am

28. What were you doing at midnight:
watch movie...

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for:
clueless...(nothing)

30. Last time you saw your Mother:
last night

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life:
health

32. What are you listening to right now :
when you're gone by avril lavigne

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:
nope...

34. What's getting on your nerves right now:
getting luv..

35. Most visited webpage:
FB

36. Whats your real name:
Noor Zarina Ismail

37. Nicknames:
Adik,RyNn,Zarina,Jaja,Ina

38. Relationship Status:
It's complicated

39. Zodiac sign:
Aquarius

40. Male or female?:
ladies ait...

41. Primary school:
SK Rantau Panjang Klang

42. Secondary school:
SMK Rantau Panjang Klang, Teknik Klang & Teknik Cheras

43. High school/college/university?:
UiTM Dungun n UiTM Shah Alam

44. Hair color:
Black

45. Long or short:
shoulder cut...

46. Height:
1.7 m

47. Do you have a crush on someone? :
yups..

48: What do you like about yourself?:
me...

49. Piercings:
yups..

51. Righty or lefty:
both..

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery:
standard 5

53. First piercing:
standard 4

54. First best friend:
elya

55. First sport you joined:
netball

56. First vacation:
Penang

58. First pair of trainers?:
standard 6

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating:
chicken rice

60. Drinking:
plain water

61. I'm about to:
going out..meeting adrin..cute baby..huhu...

62. Listening to:
zouk techno song...

63. Waiting on:
time..until 5pm will meet them..

YOUR FUTURE

64. What kids?:
hmm...twin son n a girl..

65. Get Married?:
in plan

66. Career?:
account n business

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes:
eyes...

68. Hugs or kisses:
luv hugs...

69. Shorter or taller:
tall...huhu...170 okay...

70. Older or Younger:
acceptable...

71. Romantic or spontaneous:
spontaneous,hmm..

72. Nice stomach or nice arms:
nice stomach,hahaha....

73. Sensitive or loud:
sensitive is better...

74. Hook-up or relationship:
relationship, care about everything...

75. Trouble maker or hesitant:
hesitant,but not too much...

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger:
hell NO..

77. Drank hard liquor:
nopes...

78. Lost glasses/contacts:
i'm wearing it...

79. Sex on first date:
nopes..

80. Broken someone's heart:
yups,once...

82. Been arrested:
yups...

83. Turned someone down:
yes, i did.n it was a mistakes

84. Cried when someone died:
yes, missing them a lotz...

85. Fallen for a friend?
yups...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself:
i'm believe in myself...

87. Miracles:
sum times..

88. Love at first sight:
yups...

89. Heaven:
yups...

90. Santa Claus:
NO...

91. Kiss on the first date:
nopes...

92. Angels:
yes...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:
nopes...

95. Did you sing today?:
yes...

96. Ever cheated on somebody?
yups..

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?:
since kindergarten

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?:
14 february

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?:
yes, starting today

100. Posting this as 100 truths?:
yes, n all the TRUTH coming from me...

MiSsUnDeRsToOd is BacK agAin!!

hari ni dah 3tahun 8 hari aku bergelar pegawai awam... tak pernah pun dulu aku terlintas untuk semua ni.semua kerana kehendak orang tua ku..walaupun aku tahu,aku boleh mencuba bidang lain,aku tak sampai hati nak kecewakan mereka..selama hari ni, parent aku yang bagi support,selain kawan-kawan yang sentiasa ada denganku..jadi aku pendamkan saja cita-cita yang selama hari ni aku impikan...
dream is a dream...
aku hanya dapat membayangkan semua impian dan cita-cita.sebuah cafe kecil,(ketawa aku sendiri) dalam town yang agak crowd with people...hmm,ala,ala oldtown jgk la...cuma nak selitkan port yang best nak lepak...yang tu ade macam kat starbucks or coffebean...simple menu as well,not the heavy for the customer.may b a simple as a cake, muffin, or sandwich. juz imagine,how wide my smile kalau tgk every single age datang cafe tu..nak study,simple meeting or even a small reunion..i'll keep it as my dream.a loving couple will luv to stay there bcoz of the romance situation..may b a lily on top of every table...
as i said before,all of it,is a dream..dream that will never come true. becoz all this dream is made with my long lost love...may b a different idea,but in the same food line.hey,move on okay??yup,i am move on..try n try n try...i will keep trying until the end of my breath...
i am loosing my spirit as i have before...aku tak pernah jumpa doktor untuk mintak ubat anti stress..aku dah teruk sangat agaknyer(ketawa lagi).sampai terpaksa ambil ubat untuk tenangkan diri sendiri.mungkin itu jer penyelesaian.bukan aku tak biasa makan ubat,since standard 5 dah kena amik ubat tdo.i am sick.cuma this one is quite heavy.macam dadah yang aku tangkap kat airport tu agaknyer kan...(ketawa lagi) aku cuma harap the result takkan menakutkan aku sendiri.dulu mase wat check up for B cancer pun dah cukup menakutkan aku.such a creepy experience bile doktor suruh aku buat further check up for the cancer..alhamdulillah,it is not a cancer.ya Allah, jauhkan aku dari semua tu,masih banyak lagi yang perlu aku lakukan.kalau bukan untuk diri aku sendiri pun,untuk papa,mama n my sis...i dun even care of myself anymore.as long as i can make them happy,aku tk nak fikir lagi all about my dream..aku dah cukup hepi bile aku bermimpi dapat semua tu.
hmm...ade tak sape2 tak bleh jaga baby...bagi kat aku lah,nak amik adopted children.bleh aku bagi all my love that left to them.coz i dun have any chance(i think) to have a LOVE anymore...

Pemimpin!!

Aku bangkit lagi
Seperti hari-hari selalu
Muka lain takde ke?
Seperti hari-hari selalu
Perangai itu jugak yang kau tunjuk
Seperti hari-hari selalu

Kau nak tunjuk kuasa
Tapi perlu kipas besar nak berjaya
Kau nak tunjuk belang
Sebab dah lama kau duduk bawah yer
Kau nak buat orang bengang
Kerana kau tak pernah rasa cam bangang

Pilihan depan mata
Jangan kau buat-buat buta
Orang bagi pendapat
Tak perlu kau jadi pekak badak
Kebenaran dah pecah
Tiba-tiba kau jadi bisu

Kalau pemimpin kita dah berubah
Kenapa cara pimpinan kau tak nak berubah
Kalau pemimpin kita dah berubah
Kenapa cara kau jadi lebih kolot
Kalau pemimpin kita dah berubah
Kenapa...........!!!!

TingGalkan dia

Benci dirinya, wajahnya yang terpacul
Sakit hati, bila tiada lagi kesempatan
Jiwa kosong, kerana khilaf menebal
Rayu, hanya pernah melintas fikiran
Kini hanya meniti masa dalam menanti jawapan

Bodoh benar aku
Jalan mati aku ikutkan
Hutan duri aku redah
Tiada arah, tiada tujuan
Bukan dia perlu aku fikirkan

Tinggalkan dia
Aku tak perlukan dia
Hidupku lebih bahagia tanpa dia
Mungkin lebih bermakna sebelum dia
Dia hanya kenangan
Hanya menjadi tamparan
Dan tiada lagi dia

JaLan Yang Ku PiLiH

Inikah jalan yang harus aku teruskan?

Sentiasa sahaja menghalang keinginan hati.

Kusut fikiran dan minda meminta simpulan dileraikan.

Dari dulu sehingga kini, bukan hasrat dan impian aku yang tercapai.

Semua hanya untuk orang lain.

Haruskah aku teruskan lagi?

Tak tergagah lagi rasanya hendak aku tampung.

Mencucuk duri tajam dalam hati ini.

Terbakar mata ini dengan kejayaan insan lain.

Air mata yang mengalir tak pernah berbalas.

Tetapi, aku merasa sedikit bahagia, pabila aku melihat insan yang mengkehendaki semua ini, bisa tersenyum lebar untukku.

Aku bahagia jika mereka bahagia.

Aku bisa tersenyum bila melihat mereka gembira.

Biarlah aku rawat segala luka dan parut dalam hati ini.

Akan aku sejukkan hati ku yang terbakar panas supaya tidak aku merintih merayu meminta belas.

Hanya aku yang tahu jalan mana yang perlu aku pilih.

Buat insan yang amat aku sayangi, aku tahu kamu menerima aku seadanya dari dulu hingga kini.

Sedarilah kamu, sesaat pun tidak pernah aku lupakan diri kamu.

LifE GeTting BluRr...

Sakit dan terus sakit lagi. Kalau bukan sakit luaran pun,tak pernah aku lari dari sakit hati. Bukan je dari kawan - kawan, kadang - kadang family pun ble wat aku sakit hati.
Tapi kalau pasal family aku dah lama tak layan. Mak aku pun dah lama malas nak layan kerenah family ku yang kadang - kadang cakap tak serupa bikin.
Bila susah, sampai lubang BATU pun leh cari. Tapi, bila senang, sikit pun tak kongsi. Tak heran pun, family aku leh dapat HAPPY tu kat tempat lain. The better kan dengan family. Dah tak leh wat ape kalau family sendiri tak nak kongsi, TERIMA KASIH JE LAH!!!
Bila mase susah, kami tak nak tolong, MUNCUNG MULUT TU BLEH IKAT LA WEI...ingat mak bapak aku COP DUIT ke????
Aku salute tul mama ngan papa aku, walau macam mane susah pun, diorang pandai cari rezeki. Jangan terkejut bile jumpa papa ku yang smart keje potong rumput je. Tu sebab aku masih boleh hidup ngan family ku. Walaupun dulu aku cukup pantas memberontak bila keinginan aku tak ditunaikan. Hakikat hidup dalam keluarga aku yang MENGONG dh aku faham. Jadi aku takde nak merungut macam dulu, ye laa,dah matang sket,wawawawa.